melissae: (Tigh)
ahh. temping. The jobs which you can care the very very least about and still pull in a (sometimes) paycheck.
Worked last week at some company. Spent the (short) week answering the phone and reading. Easy peasy. The people were nice and about a block and half away from the office was some sort of culvert-waterway-ditch? thing. The waterway had a nice walk on either side and led over to what a sign told me was some sort of "bay walk"

It was a fairly un-interesting seeming walking place but it managed to produce some very exciting treasures!
The first day, I found a mountain! Well, a tall hill. Well. Really a tall-ish hill. But I walked to the very top of the hill to see what might be on the other side. There was lots of hot dry grass, a good amount of dust and a snake skin! I was very excited to have found it! I did not see the snake that it had once belonged to, and I suppose that was for the best.

I of course took it home. I put it in the Ford, because I could only assume what the people at the office would have called the temp agency and said if I came back from my lunch and plopped a snake skin on the desk. The next two days, I had Karla for company on my lunch time walks and that made it even better. We found another path and the Triangle of Bravery and then the next day we found a dead bird. The dead bird was lowest on the list of Treasures Found on the work day lunches. On Friday, the Bubblator and Building 130 was discovered. Also, a potential hiding hole for It. Ahh, but someday, it will all be mine. The beautiful vistas, the beautiful smells....

So, probably the best thing about temping was that it was EXACTLY ten minutes from out the door to the Meadery. Yay! Yay for happy hours that I can make and glory glory for commutes that are 15 minutes instead of two hours. We'll see if the temp agency pulls up anything for me next week.

Friday night was a Beatles Rock Band party at Ido's. That was fun!! I am not sure that I get the appeal of the game but we had a very good time. I have awesome friends. I found it vastly amusing to make the game play Helter Skelter over and over again. Also, I learned you have to "strum" the thing. Who knew?

This morning, early, it started to rain, and smells like fall. This afternoon, the wind in the parking lot outside of work (work..the office.. kind of not the right term for either, but where I go when I need to go into the Office for the Project...) smelled like fall. It was so nice out there. Chilly and warm in just the right amounts. I could have stayed out there for a long time, that's for sure.

Today is Gail's move, which I am not helping on. I feel bad, but I missed the meet-up anyhow and worked until 4 or so. And that just makes the day too long. I am tucked in for the evening. I wish I had more True Blood on hand to watch, but thats ok. Oh! Maybe Fringe is online. I hate it that Supernatural and Fringe are on at the same time.

Tomorrow is housecleaning because omg does it need it. Laundry and vacuuming and general tidy-ing up.

OMG and I forgot that [ profile] elite gave me the fraking BEST PRESENT EVER in the history of presents. It is a signed picture of Tigh, shirtless and taking a shot. And she had him sign it to me! It says "Melissa, Frak em all" I love it. to pieces.
As a matter of fact, Im changing my userpic for this entry.


Sep. 11th, 2009 07:31 am
melissae: (USA)
Just briefly.
My thoughts and prayers to all those who lost their lives on this day eight years ago. My prayers for all those who have lost their lives since, trying to fight an enemy no one can quite agree on.

(and because I really do like the ones with the eagles. one more)

God Bless America. May we always have our freedom and our pride, no matter who tries to take it from us.

Star Trek

Sep. 6th, 2009 09:14 pm
melissae: (trek)
So, even though you would have thought that I would run out to the theater to see it... I never ever saw  Abrams' Star Trek.
I was out of town when it opened, for the Southern 500 (I think) so I was going to miss opening weekend anyhow. But I never went and saw it.

It was sort of a thing where I really didn't want to see it with anyone else who had already seen it..because of people and even the possibility of giving anything away by pre-reacting, by talking, by saying anything about what i might or might not can't wait to see. Or seeing it with someone at all, for just the same kind of reasons...Princessy, I know.
And in reality. It wasn't the whole reason.

The reason was that I don't trust anyone with Star Trek. I didn't believe that anyone could take what Star Trek was, make new people into the characters and then say that this was part of what had meant so much to me as a kid. And really, what it has meant to me growing up and what it still means to me today. I am not the worlds most bestest fan.

I do not know the names of all the episodes or what the one thing is in I, Mudd that was off when you compare it to The City of the Edge of Forever. I did not religiously follow the Next Generation, or Voyager or DS9. I did watch the cartoon. I did watch Enterprise (ehh) and I have an uncounted number of the pocket books, a few records (including two I think, with picture discs and books) ...

I went to Star Trek conventions when I was a kid, and the series meant a WHOLE other world for me. It still does. So to have someone come and tell me that they made my world into something that it, well, wasn't, did not really sit all that well with me.
Abrams didn't come and say he was going to add to it with more stories but rather he thought that he could take the story that built my world and say "ta da"...I made it better!
I just really had a hard time with that.
I also didn't believe anyone one bit about whether they thought it was good movie or not. sorry all. Not that I didn't believe that they enjoyed it, just that, it wouldn't live to, umm, what I want. (The whole world must cater to meeeee!) :p

So. They re-released Star Trek into Imax theaters for this week, and maybe next? And I realized that I needed to see it in the theaters, or I would be a very sad sad me watching it on the dvd player.
I took a deep breath, and me and [ profile] karlamrich went to see it last night.
*happy happy me*

I didn't even know how much it would mean to me to see it on the big screen.  I forgot how the USS Enterprise breaks my heart with joy for its beauty and promise. That's always been my ship and Star Trek has always been my world.
I know that Star Wars was supposed to be the defining science fiction for our (my) generation. But my Universe was always defined by the United Federation of Planets and the USS Enterprise.
So I let myself enjoy the characters for who they were supposed to be. And I forgive Abrams for the laughable Spock/Uhura thing. Because, I get it. (But COME on.) And I was pleased with the alternate reality that he went with.
In fact, I loved it. A LOT

I was so afraid that he would break it. That's the only way that I can define what the real reason I never went to see it is. I was afraid that he had all this power, as JJ Abrams and that he would break the one thing that..made me who I am? Defined the way I looked at the future and the things that I dreamed were possible? Was the one thing that I wanted to be when I grew up? I dunno.

This is a very silly heartfelt entry. Thanks again [ profile] karlamrich  for going with me. xoxo. You could probably see it in my face better than I can get it out in here.

Oh Atlanta!

Sep. 5th, 2009 04:07 pm
melissae: (are you there god??)

I hear you calling!

I so do. Between DragonCon and the Labor Day Classic 500 at AMS.  Damn, there is no place else that I would rather be.
If it werent for the last gasp of spending money at the end of the thesis/graduation practice...I would so be out there.

Of course I am not working right now either, so its not like I'm refilling the coffers!
Actually that is not entirely true.
I am working on maybe the coolest project ever.
There is a lot of it that I can't write about. But I will totally share details when I can.

I am working for my friend Corey's company as a creative consultant for the promotional work that they are doing for James Cameron's Avatar. It is soooo much fun. And I am getting to use my brain
I am really proud of the project and am loving working with Corey. Its a collaboration, essentially but we work very well together. It is great to work alongside of someone who's brain is at least complimentary to how mine works. Its been a total blast.

And. And there is the possibility of similar projects coming my way in the future. Yes. I know, I just got done making a whole stink about preservation. But  right now there isn't anything opened up for me in that field just yet...and one of the things that I want to do anyhow is creative consulting with a focus towards history, so this is an exciting step in a new right direction.
Hell. Even if nothing comes out of it after this.. it was totally worth it.

Taking a break from working some to watch the Nationwide race. WooHoo! Junior on the pole. That makes me happy.
What a stupid cow. Its "gentlemen start your engines" not drivers. Who let that lady and her stupid kids give the command?



Aug. 19th, 2009 07:48 pm
melissae: (12 colonies Canceron)
I think, very much so.. this.

Its not perfect but so very very interesting.


Aug. 15th, 2009 10:11 pm
melissae: (books)
I need like two more bookshelves and a file cabinet.
I have just too much stuff for anything to be organized in a way that makes it accessible and out of my way both.

Although it really could maybe use one more cull, this stuff is mostly research materials and actual information that is useful to me in several different ways. I just don't have the right kind of space to keep it set up and well managed.

I am frustrated by it all.

I am also dealing with my mom giving me some sort of weird vibe. I dont know if its some sort of anxiety that I haven't found a job (with a capital Career..) or what. Both of my parents have been big on offering me advice on where I might be able to look. Its all well meaning but irksome. Been watching the boards, listservs and job sections that will get me into my field for a couple of years now. Mostly to see whats out there as I was getting ready to embark on aforementioned career.

Anyhow. Its not like there are a million history jobs out there, I knew that. I also got an ear full about getting hired on as a temp. However, since I am assuming that they still want me to pay my rent here, I am going to need to be doing some kind of work while I search for the Perfect Job. Some extraordinarily interesting leads down another path that I hadnt really considered. Fingers crossed because I think that it would just be amazing. Knocking on wood to not jinx it.

I think that the night might call for some Deadwood. Although I am more in the mood for reading I think. We'll see. A bit more fussing with the piles of shit before I settle in.
Had a party I should have gone to tonight, but got sort of bogged down in this. Would have been fun and should have gone to do some meeting folks.. but I feel grimey from digging around in so much paper. Disheveled. Thats me right now.

Also, I would have to put on pants.
I know, I know. Didn't write about Comic Con yet. Doesnt this happen every year? I think that it does. I will probably get around to it.

hi flist!

Aug. 9th, 2009 02:25 pm
melissae: (adipose)
I only vanished for a bit. I'm back now. I'll catch up this afternoon or evening. Its going to be one heck of an entry. Long. long. long.
Just saying hi for the moment.
melissae: (always sunny)
damn im going to hate being without my computer for a week. Im debating bringing it anyhow.
Even though we have to pay for the internet.

sigh. its just that everyone will have the internet at hand through their phones, where as  I will not. I am afraid I will feel stranded.
I already do, because of that. Stupid T-mobile and their inability to put a product out early in the year....rather than the week after i get back.

Fuck it. i am bringing it. It seems like we might have split rooms, and if the computer is living in the other one, I'll be totally cut off. I'll wrangle it with me. And thus I am become an over burdened traveler.

oh well.

I think that I am ready to go. It seems like I am.
Today was a productive day, which is also good. I went and got my massage- my birthday gift from [ profile] chersey  and [ profile] unnamedfeeling  Wow. She was weird. Good body work, strange duck.
Not that I minded hearing all about how she had a crush on her house mate, or that he was "unattainable" and that he was a body builder OR that he had a framed oilpainting of himself on the wall next to the wall of snakes which he keeps as pets. And yes. She took me to show me all these things.

It was. Strange.
My back feels better though! :D

Met my dad for lunch and Yogurtland and got my nails done and repacked everything- and dont seem to have forgotten anything. I'm sure that i have too many things..but thats ok.

I have a vague plan for tomorrow which includes some laying by the pool. I think that there will be a little bit of afternoon downtime. This will be a good thing. Check in is at 3. so it will be either after or before that.
Phone is charged, charger is packed. Camera and charger is packed. Not bringing too many things to sign, if a real need arises, I will make do.
A few things though.
Too many clothes, too many shoes. Probably still have nothing to wear.

time to wrap up for the night. going to sleep sort of early..I'll get up early and fuss.

Hello 33!

Jul. 19th, 2009 09:55 pm
melissae: (12 colonies Canceron)

What a good birthday!
I got midnight birthday wishes which was awesome, and a very good hat that my mom made.
I will make her give me the picture she took of me wearing it. It looks like I'm not wearing pants,because..well Im not.

But its a good hat!

I met up with a whole bunch of folks at the Millbrae Pancake House this morning for brunch. Yay! It was as good as I remember it being. I had swedish pancakes and they were delicious. We were many of us, but we managed to get ourselves situated.
I got good gities from folks, even though I told people to just bring themselves.
Starbuck got me the moon. I havent had five minutes to sit down and tell her how fucking awesome that is.
I know exactly where it is about to be hung..I just need to find a way to stablize the print. I'll post a pic of that when i get it on the wall.

I got Broders and Target gift certs...booze for comic con, a massage that is being redeemed tuesday (because maybe the professional lady can make the left over serious teeth clenching tension go away) Supernatural Orgins..Pushing Daisies S2..Athena got me Supernatural S2 and fuel for me and the car. Damn if one of these days we won't hit the road. We might not have the Metallicar..but I can tell. :) we'll be gone one of these days.

My mom made an awesome cake of me and Sterns.

Even down to the little spot on her nose. :D

My mom got me a necklace and a very pretty compact..and my grandma and aunt got me this awesome itty-bitty fridge and a nice bag.

I like this birthday. It seems like a good number, and it started out tasty and with good friends. And Starbuck is right! My birthday means that Comic Con is just around the corner! 
So much good stuff.

32 was pretty much the best year I have ever had. So much happened, and I actually acomplished so much. I am proud of the work that I did and am excited that I get to actually graduate and (hopefully) take the first real steps along the sort of  career type paths that people are sometimes lucky enough to find.
That seems like an awesome way to start 33.
I can't wait to see whats next!

(ps. I hope its a job! :D )

melissae: (YAY!)
Happy Birthday [profile] otherbella  I hope you had a fantastic day!

*throws confetti for July 19th girls*

melissae: (at last)
Now that I'm done with grad school, Im suddenly broke again. What the hell. I really actually saved and worked at keeping my money and now, its all gone. whoosh!

Not that having to pay 500 fucking dollars to bind my thesis copies helped at all. Sigh.
fuuuuck. For once in my life I was on top of my money and that is no longer the case.


Under here there's rambling galore! )

So thats it! Broke. Looking for work. Fighting with my mom. Tired. comic con. the end.

melissae: (YAY!)

"Melissa  -  I am pleased to hear that you have received the signed Title Pages and that your manuscript is off to be bound.  This completes the requirements for HP 641  (Thesis) with a grade of “Pass”. Well done !

It is O.K. to have the bindery deliver my copy to Goucher.  It should be marked “For Hugh C. Miller”

Thanks to John and Ken for their interest and assistance in guiding your research and analysis for your ground-breaking work.

Megan -  Please post a grade of “Pass” for Melissa’s HP 641 course.

Mimi -  This completes all the work of Melissa’s thesis committee.

Best wishes to all and many thanks.


so nice

Jul. 10th, 2009 09:26 pm
melissae: (alone in this world waiting)
to come home happy, and be met with confidence crushing criticism of your plans.
melissae: (i hate history!!!!!)
Maybe spoilery, maybe not )

So in general. I like it! Maybe a bit much in places. A few less lights zooms..maybe. Other than that. I'm good with it.
How much, of course.. would I love to be watching Torchwood right now.

Come on

Jul. 6th, 2009 09:38 pm
melissae: (are you there god??)
I just need one email from Hugh saying that I can print and bind my gorram thesis. Just one.
And yet, that isn't here yet.

COME ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
melissae: (USA)
I love the 4th of July. For lots of different reasons.
I mean, who doesn't love freedom, right?
And I'm a bi-centennial baby, so I kind of love the whole idea of the birth of our nation- my birth month thing.
dorky dorky, I know.

Then of course, there's the fireworks and the parades and the frickin one day that (most) people aren't hating America. Even the crazy liberal annoying as hell people seem to shut up for the 4th of July. For example, I am very glad that I am not at work on the 4th, with my co-worker who rambles on and on about what a dumb bossy country America is and how white people ruin everything. (really) because I think that it wouldnt have gone over so well today. (I manage to keep a handle on what I want to say to her, for fear of losing my job) (which of course, I anyhow.)

So yeah. :) Most people manage to appreciate their country today.

I like to send a message to my friend Dom in Engand reminding him how much King George was crazy and ha! We don't need you and your taxation without representation anyhow.

I love the 4th of July because its the day that I left, for good, my ex fiance. I mean, this is the weekend I moved out. With the help of my mom and dad, Jen and two other people who worked for my aunt, I pikced up everything that could be moved in one day...and left everything else behind. Several years ago now, but it was a huge thing. It was the real first step in coming back to myself after being lost for seven years.

so yay! Freedom from people who drag you down and make you hate yourself!

I turned in the final draft of my Thesis yesterday too. One more thing to add, one more milestone. And of course, one more "freedom from oppression" moment. (snicker)

I'm starting to see the road ahead. Its interesting! There are might be a few side roads coming up that I didnt expect and that is really exciting.  We'll have to see whether or not this new path opens up. I still don't have a plan, but there is promise ahead and that feels good. Scary to know that after the 17th I won't be working, but good to know that the future is peeking out just a bit.

July is just such a good month. Its summer time and the sun is all shiny. Everyone is out and about. Its hot (in places other than the bay area, but I remember that its hot elsewhere!) Its the 4th of July, its bbqs, its my birthday, its comic con!


melissae: (Tigh thinks you suck)
I feel like i have things to write. It may just be a symptom of having my edited draft returned to me and staring at me. Kind of literally. The cheapest thumbdrive at the office depot had this obnoxious face on it.
Anyhow, it has eyes. it is literally and figuratively staring at me.

I am excited for July. And for whatever is coming next.
I havent told my parents that I quit my job, since I really dont want any kind of negative energies or thoughts or "you should just be lucky to have a job in this economy"s coming my way.

I am excited for next thursday as well. We'll see what door that opens, if any.
It seems like I have all this time left at my job, but honestly, there's hardly any time left at all. :) Of course its going to be crazy hard to put any effort into my time there..but I do want a good send off, and more especially a good recommendation. They are throwing me a going away party on the tenth. I hope I get some sort of adios-bonus or something.

or not. fuck it.
melissae: (dean has faith)
As you can see- new layout! I am not quite done fussing with it, but for right now I need to stop or I am not going to get anything else done today.

I have [ profile] starpollo  of [ profile] creative_muse  to thank for helping me figure out what the frak I was actually doing. :D and for pointing out things that I am sure are super obvious to other people.

And the layout design comes from [ profile] palebird . I totally spent all morning doing this. I can't believe its 1. sheesh.

I need to figure out, for example how not to let it shade my user pics, and I have some of the fonts and font colors  to still fool with. And my mood image won't show up.
But still!
I really don't know how to make this stuff work, so Im dorkily proud of myself for learning this really basic stuff.

melissae: (12 colonies Canceron)

snagged from [profile] spooky_xphile 
I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are  on my flist, so let me know with whom I'm friends!

(Always feel free to be vague, cheeky or just to outright skip any ones you're not comfortable answering! :D )

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Film:
5. Favorite Song or Album:
6. Favorite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favorite memory of us?
14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favorite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?
melissae: (alone in this world waiting)
I am still sort of, i feel kind of- like i should be doing something, and yet. Im not.
Not having to write every minute of the day is throwing everything in the shit blender.
I passed my oral defense
Im waiting for the draft to return to me from my editor.
I went to a con
I went to a race
I introduced myself to marty smith and Mike helton
(I just killed a horrid beetle)

I need to end a brief romantic tangle

I missed my dear friend's birthday
I just put in my 30 days notice at my work

Im starting to start to plan a future
im so excited for comic con

I can watch tv again without feeling guilty.
I am sleeping in until 5 am, and dont have to get up and write or edit or search out references.

my brain is still so off kilter and out of sorts though. I dont feel adrift, just sort of like there is cotton fluff on the end of all my thoughts and actions. Not like when you are sick, just like, everything is so less urgent right now, that it feels, odd.
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